The Dreaded Wednesday…

Oh Goodness… esok is Wednesday. I am so kelam kabut on Wednesday because Wednesday calls for a different routine. Wednesday is my tired day actually. I have so many things to remember that it is always kelam kabut, no matter how organized I try to be. And a whole month had passed too. Which goes to say, my training period is over.

Today, I am going to type it down, with hope (dan kunun-kununnya berazam) that tomorrow I shall remember everything. So, K-lynn.. remember that on Wednesday:

1. There is no mengaji for the kids. So leave those mengaji bags at home. Else, Sorfina is going to scream at you as usual, “Ibu! Kenapa bawak beg mengaji ni?”

2. Afnan has karate on Wednesday. So REMEMBER to pack his karate suit and THE BELT with it.

3. Since it’s Karate day, it means Afnan stays back a little late. So pack heavier bekal. Not just some flimsy roti gula or maggi goreng. Maybe extra allowance too.

4. Sorfina has piano class. At 8pm. So, make sure to take the music class bag and not mengaji. Else, you’ll be like orang gila rushing to pick up the bag in between of fetching the kids and sending to class.

5. Since we might not have time to take dinner BEFORE piano class, make sure to pack some snack before heading home. Buy it during lunch, so you won’t be rushing like orang gila.. again.

6. And remember to bring the laundry and/or laundry receipt so you can pick up the baju batik from the dry cleaner to wear tomorrow (Thursday).

Pheww… even typing this dah rasa semput. Bila clock out tu, mesti rushing nak sampai cepat dengan harapan dapat dinner BEFORE the piano class. Tp tak pernah berjaya. Sebab ada je something that gets in the way, such as.. Boss wants to have a meeting at 5.30pm.. which means I only get to leave at 7.00pm. Or the kids get lost, I keep forgeting the bag, so have to singgah home to pick up the bag. Or one of the kids sakit perut, so kena singgah rumah and do the business. Or my husband dah sampai. Kena pick him up. Then while Sorfina is attending class, I have to rush to Tesco’s surau for maghrib. Then singgah dry cleaner before they close. And then back to pick Sorfina and Afnan up.

Here’s to semangat that for the first time, tomorrow will be smooth sailing. InsyaAllah.

Why Not Move to Putr@jaya

Why not stay in Putrajaya?

1. Because I have to change the school for the kids. To me, it’s too much a hassle. But if I don’t do it now, but do so later, (not necessarily Putrajaya).. it will be even crueler. Because by then, they would have established their friendship and bond. Hmmm… I know it’s not fun at all, because I’ve been there, done that.

2. The public transport to KL is not convenient enough for Mr. Suami to go to work. Drive? Oh, we would definitely pass that. Because the traffic at Jalan Tun Razak towards Jln Semarak is just too crazy to handle if one is driving, especially that peak hours in the morning and evening. The ERL is too expensive, and he would have to take an LRT to Pasar Seni or something. Sudahnya sama je dari Seremban. And the bus service is too slow.

3. I hate the idea of moving. Taking your stuffs from one place to another. Packing. Unpacking. Rearranging.

4. We may need to look for a helper or a babysitter. Alah, I am so malas to do this.

5. The thought of leaving my mom, doesn’t feel too good. Why? Because my brother who is staying with her is a doctor at the GH. Sometimes he will be on call. Other times he would be home late. So my mom is practically alone most nights. I fear for her safety. Even hough I don’t go to her house so often these days, at least staying 7 minutes away, gives me some peace of mind.

There are some more, but too lazy to type.. I’m gonna publish this first.

Dilemma

1. To stay in Putr@jaya… or not

2. To domestic helper… or not

3. To stay upstairs.. or downstairs

4. To make up my mind… or not.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm…..

Welcoming the New Year with Changes

So, tomorrow I will officially be at a new office. Sebenarnya, not so new pun. It’s just back to HQ. In fact, I’ll be at the same floor as before. So, Aras 6, I’m back… but at a different department.

Supposedly, I was to start yesterday, but I took 2 days leave to see that my kids could settle down with some changes as well. Alhamdullillah they seem fine. Not lost or anything. Neither were they sad. No one was injured, no one cried, yours truly included. Leganya.

Today I finally managed to clear my room with whatever little things I have. 30 minutes je, just to show how little things I have in there, because of the little time I spent there. Most were spent in my car. Anyway, cleaning and leaving, I am reminded of the things I will and will not miss. Things I am and am not looking forward. Among others:

What I’ll Miss

1. Plan my own day

2. Claimable mileage

3. Pants to work

4. Taking pictures

5. 20 minutes breezy drive to work.

6. Lunch at home? So possible!

7. Cuti, silalah…

8. Room with view of Seremban Town

What I’m Not Looking Forward To

1. 40 minutes dash on the highway

2. Jam at Bulatan Besar Putrajaya

3. Nametag

4. Batik every Thursday

5. Endless meetings (Mesy Pengurusan esp)

6. Bersalah nak cuti

7. 100km drive EVERYDAY

8. Meetings yang menggemukkan

Happy to Leave

1. Lonely Breakfast Days

2. Flying Squad – Report in 2 days

3. Fight for a parking space

4. Who gets to use the office car

5. Possibility of meeting pakcik sewel yang nak meraba

Welcoming

1. Designated Carpark

2. New Things to Learn, new people to meet

3. Office computer (sekarang pakai personal laptop kat office)

4. Lunch with many, many friends

5. Maternity Leave in March 2010, YEAY!!!!

Kenapa…

1. Ramai GILA orang kat Wisma Federal ni? Sumo dah gilo agak eh.. nak siapkan macam-macam sebelum tahun baru.

2. Orang asek tanya aku, “pregnant ke?” Ke diorang saje nak buat small talk macam, “makan ke?” Kan aku pakai baju maternity ni.. takkan aku nampak macam orang gemuk plak. Yelah, tanyalah soalan seperti, “eh, dah berapa bulan?” I mean, kalau kau tak pasti aku pregnant, mesti tak tanya macam tu kan. Hish…

3. Bila aku duduk kat office ni, semua orang nak cuti? Sudahnya aku kena makan sorang-sorang. Yelah, aku pon nak cuti gak, tapi sebab aku kena cuti tahun depan menguruskan anak aku sekolah, terpaksa kerja hujung tahun.

4. Tak jumpa-jumpa lagi transport nak hantar Afnan balik sekolah. Lepas tu daycare/transit dekat2 umah aku semuanya nak tutup pukul 6. Eh takde ke orang macam aku ni yang sampai rumah pukul 7.. kan ramai je orang kerja putrajaya dan kl dan KLIA keliling2 ni.. Kenapa. kenapa?

5. Office aku ni panas? Kalau kat unit operasi belakang sana sejuk je.. Ke aku je rasa panas duk kat office ni. Maklumlah dah lama tak masuk dan tak lama lagi nak tukar office.

Banyak je lagi persoalan kehidupan yang aku nak utarakan.. tapi banyak lagi kerja pejabat yang aku kena siapkan ni.. So, later.

Yasmin Ahmad’s Films Book

In conjunction with Muallaf’s opening at local cinema, I thought I’d write about the Yasmin Ahmad’s Films book, written by Amir Muhammad that I bought recently.

So, why did I buy the book?

1. The author and publisher offered free delivery. Click, click.. buku sampai. No extra charge or movement. Sape tak nak..

2. The author would personally autograph the book.. sweet.

3. I have a soft spot for Matahari Books.. don’t ask me why.. maybe because I won one previously.

4. I haven’t seen all of YA’s films.. so I would like to know what they are about.

5. Those that I watched, I didn’t understand it all.

6. The sale would go to Mercy – Yasmin Ahmad Fund for Children.. which means, I’d be contributing to helping human kind indirectly.

Now that I’ve read it, what do I think?

1. I love it. It’s a keepsake. A reference. Something you can grab and start reading at any page.

2. It certainly helped me understand parts of YA’s films that I didn’t understand.

3. Gives an insight to her films and some commercials too.

4. Lets you in on things about the author, such as, eh dia dah pegi Umrah (totally trivia, but still).

5. Makes you want to go out and get all of YA’s movie.

6. Corrects the statement that most people say: Sh. Amani is the actress most seen in YA’s films. (If not her, who? Buy the book to find out)

7. All the more reasons to watch Muallaf, now it is out at the local cinemas.

I’d Like to Write About…

There are a few things I would like to blog about, but can’t seem to get myself to sit down and type it. Why? Partly the big MIM-ALIF-LAM-SIN. Another part, I have tons of reports to type and hand in.

But as a preview, I would very much like to share about:

1. Amir Muhammad’s latest book that I had finished reading over the weekend: Yasmin Ahmad’s Films

2. Today, 2 years ago, my dad passed away. How sometimes I wish when I come through the door of my mother’s house after work, I would find my Dad in the living room, either typing on his laptop or drafting a text for a speech or book in a test pad.

3. My sister’s newly opened English Language Centre in Bandar Seri Putra. It think it’s really cozy and vibrant at the same time. I hope she will receive a lot of customers and the business will blossom.

4. My two new nephews. Muhammad Alif Akid bin Khairil-Iszuddin and Imran bin Khairil Idham.

If i have the time, will upload some pics. In the mean time, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha.

Keep Breathing

Dear Lin,

It’s hard. And it gets harder.
And quite honestly, I don’t have any words of wisdom to ease the pain.
But dear, all we can do is pray for our parents that had left us.
And both of us, we have to be sabar and redha.

It’s going to be exactly two years for my family this 23rd Nov, and it doesn’t get any easier. Just keep on praying, ya.

For a while then, this song was the theme of my life. And I dedicate this song to you, may you find strength. Take care, Lin.

The storm is coming but I don’t mind
People are dying, I close my blinds

All that I know is I’m breathing now

I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I’m breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All that I know is I’m breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

Ingrid Michaelson – Keep Breathing

Random Thoughts (Pemikiran Rawak)

1. Keinginan untuk mengemaskini blog ku adalah amat tinggi.. Namun, tahap kerajinan jauh menjunam.. kenapa? Nantilah ye..

2. Lamanya aku tak pegi Kedai Pak Tam.. Anyone?

3. Bilalah surat tu nak tiba? Kalau tak dapat hitam putih, secara lisan pun aku terima..

4. Berkaitan di atas, semalam masa mesyuarat aku sungguh terganggu sebab orang yang asek tanya aku dan kawan-kawan pasal analysis tools ada sama dalam mesyuarat tu. Ini mesyuarat internal je.. takde pun organisasi lain. Bila masa pulak dia ni keje kat sini. Oh my selipar Asadi! Terganggu betul aku.

5. Malasnya nak gerakkan diri untuk pandu dan balik.

6. Besok kena basuhkan kasut sekolah @fnan.. Argghh, kenapalah buat ibu macam ni???!!

PAC 48

1. My number (nombor badan) was the same as the one I got during my PAC41 – 102.

2. Aku masuk temuduga dengan Mohd Sani. Aku penah jadi fasilitator sebelum ni di mana interviewer aku adalah Panelnya. Not that it will give me any advantage. Dan aku sungguh tak puas hati tak dapat jawab pasal NKRA Kementerian aku.

3. I don’t think we ran 2.4km. It felt shorter.

4. Given the chance to do it all over again, I don’t think I would have done it any different. Sama je lemau.

5. I would like to quote a friend, about all the simulations we were supposed to go thru: “If you put us in a situation that is not real, how do you expect us to act in a manner that we would in reality?” Betul tak?

6. Aku benci tepuk lalat.